Xmas Dinner

Today is Christmas.  I got $200.  That's it.  More then I thought I would get, so I'm good with it.  Also I made dinner.  All of dinner. It was really really good. 

Squash, Basil and Goat Cheese stuffed Pork loin roast
Roasted mini onions and garlic
Brussel Sprouts

It came out really well and I have the OK to make it again, so that means it was good!

Advantures in the kitchen

Tonight I made chicken breast, with this skin on but no bone.  It was pan seared to crisp it up and then put it in the oven, together with chopped onions and smothered in barbe-q sauce.  And on the side there were backed beans with mustard and frozen peas.

Please allow me to tell you, it was amazing.  I am really loving this cooking thing and trying out a lot of new foods and cooking techniques.  It's a lot of fun!

I love Science

There was a Luner Eclipes last night.  I wish I had woken up, but it was 2am, and I was happy being asleep. 

It's really cool!  I'm a nerd sometimes, I know!

New line of topics

I don't have much happening these days, other then the packing I'm doing almost totally alone.  My wrist and back are killing me as well as my upper right arm.  But whatever.  I can deal with it as I've always dealt with it by keeping my mouth closed because the fight that would ensue would be more then my nerves can handle and if I break down, my mother wold make me go back on the meds.  Not in my plan!

As for the new topics, I have been watching a lot of cooing shows lately and since I really have nothing to do, I've been thinking of getting back into cooking.  It's hard doing it when Sally's here because she's all over the kitchen and annoying the shit out of me, but I'm cooking tonight.  I'm really looking forward to it.  I'm making Chicken Parm and sauce with pan friend spinach.

This is what it's supposed to look like...

This is what MINE looked like

Can I just say, it was FUCKING AMAZING! I am very proud of myself.

Hair

I'm thinking of cutting my hair.  Nothing big and crazy, it's not an emotional change, it's that my hair is just kinda laying there and doing NOTHING!  It's pissing me off hardcore.  So I'm thinking about things like these...

I'm thinking something a few inches below my shoulders. but layered with body and movement.

Let me know what you think!

200

200.  That's how much I weigh.  And no, I'm not happy about it.  But I also know I'm not really doing anything about it.  I know I should be and it would help with my small slump into EMOville.  But being away from the computer is really hard.  I want to spend as much time talking with Jonna as possible.  I want to be connected to my old life as much as possible.  I know it sounds stupid, but it's true.  If I'm NOT talking with Jonna, I feel totally cut off from the real world. 

I haven't worked on my German.  I haven't watched Volkerball.  Both, I know, will help me but it's not going to happen for at least 14 days.  That's how long we have to pack.  And I have to pack almost this entire house.  I fucking hate packing.  And I'll have to deal with Sally.  This is going to be a hard two weeks. 

Send me some good vibes

Positive Thinking

I'm trying something new.  Well, not NEW, but something that I need to do more and more.  Positive Thinking.  I will and I can do things I want to do in my life.  I can and will make it through living with my family again.  I can and will learn German in two years.  I can and will get through and graduate from hair school.  I can an will get a job and work part time.  I can and will make enough money to move back to Europe.  I can and will move back to Europe.  But mostly, I CAN AND WILL SURVIVE UNTIL I GET OUT OF THIS COUNTRY. 

OK, I feel better. Picture time!

Nothing To Ay Really..

I really don't have much to say, it's just to post something.  I'm not doing much lately.  What  I should be doing, is packing and doing refurbish a dresser to go in my room in Dallas but I'm spending all my day talking with Jonna and avoiding my real work.  But the truth is, I'd rather be talking with Jonna all day then pack anything up.  I hate packing.  I'm really good at it, but that doesn't mean I enjoy doing it! 

I also need to study my German which I've kinda abandoned. Not to mention the fact I haven't watched Rammstein in a few days and that's probably why I'm getting a bit moody.  I need my Ricky fix!  So here!

Ricky's mad that I haven't worked on my German.

I've not seen this one before.

Possible Options

Sometimes I'm not sure what I'm doing.  I'm not sure if "The Plan" is the best idea, but it's all I have right now.  I've never really written down "The Plan", so maybe I should do that and maybe it will help me.

The Plan

• Move To Dallas
• Go To Hair School.  The plan is to go to a TIGI school because, well first because it's TIGI and that's Rockaholic and Bed Head.  Also because it's easier for me to find a job because they are all over Europe.  And it's a bit more current.  Going to school also includes German Classes.  I want to learn German because I want to do the move to Germany the right way. 
• Get A Job.  I'm looking for a job part-time and I can go to school  at the same time.
• Graduate.  I think that's obvious.  Which brings us to a year into "The Plan".
• Get A Job In A Salon.  Once again, obvious.
• Berlin By 12/12/12.  That's mine and Jonna's goal.  It's her birthday.  She'll be 23 that day and also it's what we like to call "The Apocalypse" 

That's the plan.  It looks strange.  Simple.  But is it possible?  Just shy of 2 years, that's how long it will take.  Am I insane? Is this yet another idea i will fall flat on my face with?  I don't know.  But I have to keep looking forward or else I will go back into my depression.  And if I don't get the fuck on with "The Plan", I will lose my mind. 

And just because I need to have something nice to look at I'm going to give you a very nice picture of Richard.

It was only suposed to be one picture, but I found these and I had to share!

Because I'm crazy

Just because I was bored I was looking at clothes that were "German" inspired; and I found these!

The last one are just really cool German Goths.

My sane obsession

Rammstein.  I love Rammstein.  The music and lyrics are just amazing.  I listen to it everyday and everyday I hear something different.  Richard's guitar and Til's voice... I put on the Volkerball dvd when I work in m German book.  It helps a lot with understanding the language.  And to look at, it's not too much of a probelm.  Andbecause I've seen the dvd so many times, I know the best times to look up and see the hottness the is Richard Zven Kruspe.  The things that man can do with his fingers... WOW!  Just WOW!

Today I will start packing the house, as we move in 25 days; dye my hair, because it has some Sonic Roots, and talk with Jonna.  Oh and, of course, I will work on German and watch Volkerball.  I think I need a new dvd to watch.  Any suggestions?

Tootles.

First post

I don't really have much to say about today. I have German to get through as well as some Rammstein to translate. So I guess I should go do that.  I'll tell more later.

Tootles!